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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Hi all.

Shocking isn't it. This will be the first time that you are shocked. Why shocked? This is the first time i can't fall asleep. Yes! I can't sleep. After lying on the bed for like half an hr, for once, i can't sleep.

To myself: FUCK YOUSELF AND STOP THINKING AND GET SOME SLEEP!

Thoughts just go through my mind and i can't seem to stop thinking about them and get myself to sleep. For once................... Guess this entry is basically for myself though. Read it if you want.

Life is not fair. Or should i say, Life was never fair.
Putting effort into something, you never get the results you want. Who to blame? I guess i will blame it at others at first. (To myselfNO! Never blame others already! Blame yourself!) Yeah i should start blaming myself instead.

Things i assume
1) Assume that all will be free on the day of the event
2) Assume that all will have the money for the activities planned
3) Assume that all will be interested in the activities planned
4) Assume that all will have not watched the movie planned
5) Assume that......... there are many more assumptions that i've made.

Yeah assuming that all these are true is something that i always do. (To myself: NO! You gotta change your mindset!) Yeah, i guess i have to change my mindset. This type of scenario has not only happened once or twice in my life, it happened for quite a number of times. Why am i still thinking this way.

(To myself: Even though you belived this, you should not blame those that disregard your planned activities. Blame yourself! Why did you assume that they will participate? They got their own choices. OWN CHOICES!)

I guess it's right. I should have never blame others but blame myself.

(To myself: Comon larrh FS, you have been listening to LeeHom's Change yourself a.k.a 改变自己, it's time to change yourself man. Stop doing such silly things. BLAME YOURSELF and CHANGE YOURSELF for the better)

I guess, i really have to change myself. Wait for the change people. I will work hard.

Sad isn't it? Talking to myself through blog. Hahas. It's the first time i tried this. Not bad at all. It's just talking to yourself and listen to yourself at the same time. Oh wells. Guess the entry later tonight after the activities might be a happpy one.

Hahas. How could someone be sad and happy at the same time? Yeah you got the answer and it's me. I'm feeling the way it is now. Sad as to what i have blogged, happy as to the activities later on. What a thing to feel. It's not good to feel this way though. Don't try it.

FS REMEMBER PLEASE! GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END EVENTUALLY! IT'S JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

Yeah i guess some things ended earlier than expected. No point pondering over it too much. Get over it and continue walking and live your life to the fullest. I know you can do it FS!


Take care for now.




when your gone.
when you're not here at all.
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